I'm back, baby

sooo...it has been a while...okay...more than a while...sooo sorry, blog...hahaha...so anyway, these are what has been happening last year;

I played in UPM Beauty and The Beast Musical

as the Featherduster

got a bit of couple dancing with Lumiere the Candlestick

v(^_^)/

went out for Halloween to One Utama and also to The Curve to go to the maid cafe there for the first time

it was pretty cute and nice

X)

went to Lolita and Minapri small fashion show at Farenheit 88

also had some delicious tea party there

wootwoot

:3

my first time going to Comic Fiesta

it was pretty awesome

meeting up with new and old friends

cosplay for the first time too (left photo)

as Sena from Haganai

~(^o^)~

and even though plushies and dolls kinda scare me,

I sure had a few of them

these 2 new ones were given from a friend

lurve them.!.

sooo...that's all for the moment, I guess

I'll try to update you regularly

if not everyday, at least once a week

phew

-hugs and kisses-

oahayou.!. (^_^)/

hullo...so, anyway, yeah...been about 2 months since my last update ya...was at places where internet connections were hard to come by...so, anyway...now I'm helping out at UPM for the convocation which will start this Saturday or sometime this week...and had been to several events and did several things since my last post...but with the bloody slow internet connections, not gonna update on them for now coz can't upload the photos...anyway...that "thing" happened again...~sigh~...well, maybe it's for the best...hope you'll be happy...forever and always...and well, this job ends on Thursday...got things to do this weekend and hey, nearing Halloween again...hope everything goes on smoothly...dumdidumdidum~~~

fresh start.!.wubwub~~~

for years, I've somewhat been keeping several diaries
yeah, I know...I don't really seem 'that' type...harhar...
anyway, I think it's time I burn them all and just keep simple journals
journals where I jotted down random thoughts and feelings in simple sentences
journals where I sketch or doodle anything that comes to mind
yeah, I think that would be better than writing in handwritings that even I sometimes don't understand myself
/>.<
if I wanna write anything long, I'll just 'write' it here, in this blog
gotta be more 'focus'...and fresher...
yosh.!.
~(*w*)~

just got in

just had the time to log in into my numerous e-mails

and other stuff

and damn, there sure are a lot of stuff I gotta handle

at least before 15082013

wootwoot

~(*w*)~

the dislikes.....

ok...the start of this entry and the title were actually different...
but I change them coz I wanna write this in a different angle...but the essence of this will basically the same...
I don't hate people...I just dislike them really much...
but not really hating...coz I know, there's a saying "you love what you hate" or something like that...
and sometimes, it really is true...
I've seen people who fall for something or someone they used to hate and hate something or someone they used to love...so, it's like that...
anyway, in my entire life, there are 2 persons I'm close to hating, but not so much...just dislikes...mind you...
the first one, was when I was in high school...and can't really remember the face...only the name... >.< ...
so, the 2nd one was only recently...
well, it has been going on for a while, a couple of years, kinda...
but the irritation and annoyance keep building up and up...day by day...
and then, I snapped...
that thing had the nerve to berate me about something that was totally not my fault and I wasn't even speaking to it...
seriously, what the fuck was you problem, jerk...
you were there that one time, and you had the fucking nerve to speak up, no, to get angry at us...
oh, please...grow up...
you were always whining and complaining when something happened to you...on Twitter and Facebook...fucking grow up already...
just coz you were not included in something, you don't have to be all petty about it...what are you.?.6.?.
and you know why people don't include you, coz you were never there...so, it's all your fucking fault... ~sigh~ ...
so, since that night, I took the liberty of un-following you since I don't wanna know anything about you anyway and I'm not gonna speak to you unless it's important like somebody is dying or something or work related...
and seems like it work out fine coz I really don't wanna look at your stupid face anyway...
and that's why, ever time you open your opinionated but empty mouth, some of us just clamps up till you shut up...
coz really, you just don't have any good ideas and you just freaking like to talk...we don't even know why...
so anyway, I wanna stop sounding petty and shrew-ish for now...
and hope you'll have a fucking wonderful life with your backward ways of not caring about important things...
hope it'll work out fucking fine for you...
-sweet smile-


p/s:...not specifying any gender here...so, don't assume unless you know... X)

crash & burn (Savage Garden)

p/s:...regardless of the title and the name of the 'band', it's quite a sweet song... (^^,)

When you feel all alone

And the world has turned its back on you

Give me a moment please to tame your wild wild heart

I know you feel like the walls are closing in on you

It's hard to find relief and people can be so cold

When darkness is upon your door and you feel like you can't take anymore

Let me be the one you call

If you jump I'll break your fall

Lift you up and fly away with you into the night

If you need to fall apart

I can mend a broken heart

If you need to crash then crash and burn

You're not alone

When you feel all alone

And a loyal friend is hard to find

You're caught in a one way street

With the monsters in your head

When hopes and dreams are far away and

You feel like you can't face the day

Let me be the one you call

If you jump I'll break your fall

Lift you up and fly away with you into the night

If you need to fall apart

I can mend a broken heart

If you need to crash then crash and burn

You're not alone

'Cause there has always been heartache and pain

And when it's over you'll breathe again

You'll breath again

When you feel all alone

And the world has turned its back on you

Give me a moment please

To tame your wild wild heart

Let me be the one you call

If you jump I'll break your fall

Lift you up and fly away with you into the night

If you need to fall apart

I can mend a broken heart

If you need to crash then crash and burn

You're not alone

thuk! thuk!

digging deep

to know

how you really

feel

NY's resolution(s)? wth is that?

new year resolutions...

do we really need it?

is it really effective?

even if we do it, do we follow it?

what is it with a new year anyway

that makes people excited

(?_?)

to me, 1st january of any year is like any other day

that comes the next day

we wake up, we go through the day as best as we can, we go back to sleep

if shit happens, it happens

if great things happen, they happen

as simple as that

no need to get hype up anyway

and if people do ask what is my new year's resolutions

there's only one

be better (in a good way, mind you)

this will automatically include everything

better personalities, better habits, better job...and everything else

besides, we try to be better everyday

so, it isnt really a NY's resolution right...it's everyday resolution...which is way better in my opinion

X)

well, whatever it is

just hope for the best and prepare for the worst

\(^o^)/

feelings

sometimes

feelings just complicate things

sometimes

feelings make everything easy

sometimes

feelings are the reasons of our tears

sometimes

feelings are the reasons of our smiles

sometimes

feelings just make us want to be alone

sometimes

feelings make us want to be with others

hmmm

damn if i have, damn if i dont

-_-

oh, damn... '-_-

just when i'm about to try so hard

you pop up in every way possible

~sigh~

hehehe

inserting a little bit of

fun

into this

humdrum

..........

made me think

on the way home, i spotted a sign on a car that made me think things...pretty heavy things...;

"MAN GET AND FORGET

ALLAH GIVES AND FORGIVES"

hurmmm.....

wanna go back

i just wanna go back

back to when i was still

a carefree innocent (oh, reeaallyy...hahaha) girl

didnt have to worry about anything

accept easy homeworks and trivial things

~sigh~

p/s:...sorry...just feeling a bit nostalgic when i looked at some old photos...

maybe im too old...or too cynical...

since the past 5-6 years (im 22 now...lolz), a lot of things doesnt seem that exciting anymore to me...

especially celebrations;.....

birthdays

independence day (well, im never really excited about this anyway)

aidilfitri

aidiladha

and all those holidays in between

i only look forward to those because they are holidays and i got to hang out and go play with my friends and cousins

the day itself, im not really feeling it...

speaking of which, aidilfitri is maybe tomorrow or the next day (i just know cause a friend told me...not paying attention to dates) and to me, its just another supposedly

hype-up-blown-out-of-proportion celebration that is done by the capitalist world of malaysia (admit it, money rule us over)

i just like it by the fact that im gonna meet my cousins and play with them

saying 'sorry' to parents and elders on that day is kinda like saying you wait for 1 whole year to say you are 'truly sorry'

just say you are sorry whenever you did something wrong...it isnt that hard, really...

and all those phony friends and families that say that to you on that day and started bitching about you again after a few days

it made you think that, 'do they really mean it?'...hurmmm...i dont think so...

well, in any way...

we should just celebrate these things moderately no matter how able we are

unless, we feed and help the poor and unfortunate on that day...then, go as crazy as you want

peace out, people

and enjoy the remaining holiday

\(^o^)v

oh, really.....

left right

up down

right wrong

moment infinity

superior inferior

woman man

saint sinner

win lose

girl boy

...perspectives...

granny

just got back from the hospital
granny is in a critical condition
doctor said not that much time left
im just wishing that she goes peacefully
:(

just a few please

i hope they'll ask just a few questions

or, better...

not at all

i can only remember a few things in a short time

ho-hum

( '_')/\

war against boredom

for this holiday of 4 months

im not gonna find a job that requires me to go to it

ie; fast food restaurants or offices

coz i just dont want to

so, boredom is something that i have to fight

dont worry, i have all the perfect ammos

job:
i said i dont want to find a job, doesnt mean i dont have one
i do...its just not as tiring
once in awhile, my uncle will call me and ask me to do a translation job for him
very easy money...rm80-100 for a page...
so, by just doing 5-7 pages...i ave as much money as someone who works for a month
and i dont even have to go out of my room...hehehe

but since that is an easy one and i can finish in less than 5 days,

what else do i do...?...

hurmmm...

clean:
oh, yeah...you read that right
everyday, i find something new to clean or wash or scrub or organize
the kitchen, the bathrooms, the rooms, the living room, the fridge, the clothes, the plates, the books
anything...
and its a good think im a freak at getting things organized
hahaha...

next...

internet:
very easy and accessible
i blog, fb-ing, watch movies, read mangas and stories and so many more
in fact, the cleaning helps me in a way that if i dont do anything else,
i might go on onlining 24/7
tihihi...

and last but not least...

out:
going out and do anything i can think of
exercising, swimming, hanging out with friends and family, shopping, traveling
and just plain having fun
hohoho...

so, with all of these stuffs that im doing

boredom is a far cry...

im damn glad im a resourceful person

and glad that i can enjoy my long holiday

without the thought of going back to school (the horror!!!)

peace out, people

\(^o^)v

p/s:...just wait till the results come out...hehe...-wink-...

vietnam overviwe

well, here are some of the stuff that i noticed about vietnam

1. it was very, very, green...that was my first impression when watching it from the plane...everything was different shades of green...
2. there were more motors than cars...heck...there were more than humans...lolz...
3. if they weren't on motor, they were in huge imported cars...like bmw, peugeot, merc and others
4. based on that, i assumed that there were no middle class people like me or you...there were only upper and lower class
5. the buildings were all rectangular, thin and long...like a block of chocolate
6. the people were petite but strong
7. they were big in the selling activities...
8. the goods were very cheap...compared to malaysian
9. and speaking of malaysian, there were a lot of them i met and even most of the vietnamese knew how to speak malay...
10. at the market, we could use ringgit, usd and domn...

well, that was all...i guess
but maybe different people have different views
this was just me...
peace out
(^.^)v

lethal lazinesss

now i know why i got sick the other day
it was because i didnt really do anything
that was beneficial to my body
things that move my body vigorously
i came to that conclusion today
when i was cleaning up the whole house
felt like my body was alive!!!
oh, yeah
so, try not to be too lazy
as it is lethal
yosh!!!
\(^.^)/