ANIMANGAKI 2013

sooo...August truly is a very busy month...after so many events and outings, I just now got the time to update on them all
and the 1st event I'll update on is ANIMANGAKI 2013!!!


sooo...the event was held for 2 days...the 24th and 25th of August
and let me tell you, it was freaking amazing.!.
I got to meet my awesome new cosplayer friends on the 1st day
and hang out with my BFFs and lilsis on the 2nd day
here are some of the photos that my friends and I took during the event;

my outfit for the 1st day...kinda a neko-goth-loli thingy
heee

me and our cosplay group

they were pretty laid back people

I like... (^_^)v

some of the many cosplayers I took picture of

our Kaichou singing in the Idol Competition...she's really cute.!.

:3

and there was also this thing for the longest Nasi Lemak line or something

hoho

I wonder where all the food went to

(^_*)\

and this is me on the 2nd day

going as a 'yuppy' Enma Ai (Jigoku Shojou)

tihihi

/>.<

 with my crazy friends and lilsis

and Din bought a RM50 Zanpakuto, Benihime

it was, pretty neat

taking photos of and with some of the other cosplayers

~(^w^)~

 some of the people participating in the duet cosplay competition

I think Sonic team won

but can't quite remember

they were pretty damn good though

-nod-nod- 

 one of the performers on the 2nd day

can't quite remember her name

but she was from Thailand and she was a pretty good dancer

X)

they put up these papers where we can draw or write or sign our names

I just wrote 'awesomeness'

tihihi

but there were sure lots of talented people who could drew great stuff

all in all

it was a damn good event

I really hope I could go to the next big event, Comic Fiesta, in December

and meet up again with my group

and new people

yosh.!.

\(^o^)/

need to be check in the head

~sigh~...I don't know...these past few days, I've become damn confuse of what's happening and what happened...I'm confuse about reality, dreams, fantasies...maybe I fantasise too much...or maybe my dreams were a bit too realistic...but seriously, though...I would wake up from a sleep, whether in the morning or afternoon or evening, and I would think to myself "wow, what a good day" and then I realized I was just dreaming...damn it...and sometimes, when I'm reminiscing about a memory, it took me a while to realise, it's not even a real memory...it was just one of my damn fantasies...I hope this doesn't go on...coz there might be something wrong with my head...really need to check it...or maybe, I should just stop making up scenarios in my head and watching or reading real messed up stories or movies or series...should get a reality check and keep track on what's real, what's not...come on...it isn't that hard, right...I can effing do it.!. \(~_~)/

MISS YOU

fuck

I miss you,

damn it

.!.

ho-hum

~(*o*)~

p/s:...gonna stop being pathetic when I've calmed down or healed enough... /(>.<) ...being stupid an all...

autumn

well, in some other parts of the world

autumn/fall is approaching

based on the pictures I've seen

always thought it's the most beautiful season

besides, it has Halloween

and I simply loves to dress up

maybe I could go to some of the Halloween events here

at some of the malls

hahaha

~(^o^)~

crash & burn (Savage Garden)

p/s:...regardless of the title and the name of the 'band', it's quite a sweet song... (^^,)

When you feel all alone

And the world has turned its back on you

Give me a moment please to tame your wild wild heart

I know you feel like the walls are closing in on you

It's hard to find relief and people can be so cold

When darkness is upon your door and you feel like you can't take anymore

Let me be the one you call

If you jump I'll break your fall

Lift you up and fly away with you into the night

If you need to fall apart

I can mend a broken heart

If you need to crash then crash and burn

You're not alone

When you feel all alone

And a loyal friend is hard to find

You're caught in a one way street

With the monsters in your head

When hopes and dreams are far away and

You feel like you can't face the day

Let me be the one you call

If you jump I'll break your fall

Lift you up and fly away with you into the night

If you need to fall apart

I can mend a broken heart

If you need to crash then crash and burn

You're not alone

'Cause there has always been heartache and pain

And when it's over you'll breathe again

You'll breath again

When you feel all alone

And the world has turned its back on you

Give me a moment please

To tame your wild wild heart

Let me be the one you call

If you jump I'll break your fall

Lift you up and fly away with you into the night

If you need to fall apart

I can mend a broken heart

If you need to crash then crash and burn

You're not alone

thuk! thuk!

digging deep

to know

how you really

feel

remember and forget

it's hard to decide what to remember and what to forget

sometimes, we just can't have one without the other

if we want to remember the sweet times,

we can't do it without remembering the depression we want to forget

if we want to forget the feelings,

we can't do it without forgetting the connections we want to remember

oh my, oh my...

sometimes, the best choice is to just suppressed them

you are not forgetting, but you are not remembering either

but too much can be poisons to your mind

gonna spin out of control sooner or later

it's good if you've practiced it since you were little

oh, well...

things happen for some reasons

we just gotta accept it all

the good, the bad, the beautiful and the ugly

lol

karma's a bitch

well,

that's only because

you are one

-sweet smile-

pwetty pwease...

tomorrow is suppose to be the last day

but they say we might have a class on friday

i really hope it's not true

/(-.-)\

decision, decision

despite what people say,

making a decision is easy

damn easy

it's the part where you have to act on it

is hard

so effing hard

~sigh~

ammm!!!

do you ever wonder what your meat taste like?
i do
when i was about to take a shower, i looked at my big creamy thighs and i began thinking
"damn these look delicious. wonder how they taste like. wonder if i could cut a piece of my thigh and eat it."
then i proceed in thinking whether i should cook the meat first or just eat it raw
and also whether i should use any seasoning on the piece of meat
well, maybe not...coz i want to know the pure taste of it
and now i'm gonna stop here coz this makes me hungry and i'm thinking about my flesh again
>.<

p/s:...eating yourself is cannibalism, is it?

wanna go back

i just wanna go back

back to when i was still

a carefree innocent (oh, reeaallyy...hahaha) girl

didnt have to worry about anything

accept easy homeworks and trivial things

~sigh~

p/s:...sorry...just feeling a bit nostalgic when i looked at some old photos...

trying to start

i have never been a really avid news reader
sure, whenever i'm home, the only thing i watch on the tv is news
except for the occasionally interesting shows...
but watching and reading are two totally different things
if i'm watching, i dont really have to focus on it...i could do other stuff too
but reading requires concentration and focus...if not, i wouldnt remember what is it i read a few seconds later
haha
and since i'm not at the uni, i figured i have to start reading the news
i meant 'online' when i say this...not really interested in buying them... >.<
well, i hope i can keep this up
and not read just the 'interesting' news...but also the 'real' news
tihihi
XP

weird...

i woke up at 0530 and i just have that weird feeling
and i kept asking myself
"what the hell is it?"
just as i got back from the bathroom, i remembered
it was because of the dream i had before i woke up
a very weird dream that made me think
"why the hell did i dream those?" ... '''-___-
well, i'll probably forget it in the next hour and lets just hope it'll never occur again
hohoho

animal (neon trees)

here we go again

i kinda wanna be more than friends

so take it easy on me

i'm afraid

you're never satisfied

here we go again

we're sick like animals

we play pretend

you're just a  cannibal

and I'm afraid

i won't get out alive

no, i won't sleep tonight

[Chorus]

oh oh

i want some more

oh oh

what are you waiting for

take a bite of my heart tonight

oh oh

i want some more

oh oh

what are you waiting for

what are you waiting for

say goodbye to my heart tonight

here we are again

i feel the chemicals kickin' in

it's getting heavy

and I wanna run and hide

i wanna run and hide

i do it every time

you're killin' me now

and I won't be

denied by you

the animal inside of you

[Chorus]

hush, hush

the world is quiet

hush, hush

we both can't fight it

it's us that made this mess

why can't you understand?

whoa,

I won't sleep tonight [2x]

here we go again [3x]

oh oh

i want some more

oh oh

what are you waiting for

take a bite of my heart tonight

oh oh

i want some more

oh oh

what are you waiting for

what are you waiting for

what are you waiting

here we go again [3x]

say goodbye to my heart tonight

[Chorus]

cried, and not ashamed of it

even though i have read the book more than 10 times

i still cried during the films of Harry Potter & The Deathly Hallows (both parts)

and im not ashamed to admit it

(^.^)v

when hermoine had to erase her parents memories

when ron skipped out on them

when dobby died

when they 1st started to defend the castle

when snape died

when remus, tonks and fred died

when snape was begging dumbledore

when snape was holding lily after she died (the sweetest scene ever!!!)

when harry was talking to his dead loved ones

well, i cried a lot about snape
coz that was 1 damn great actor
and i could watch it so many times more
love the books love the movies
\(^o^)/

ghost stories

to whom it may concern,
ghost stories nowadays have lost their...urmmm...charmed...we could say that
they are no longer as scary as they used to be
or, maybe im the one that are getting more immune to them...hmmm...naaahhh...
ok, so...
what i wanna know is, what the hell happened...?!...
i know that other ghost movies other than the thai, japanese and korean movie
are usually not scary...
they are more into shocking scenes than really scary scenes
but now...even those three (thai, japanese, korean) have lose it
they have follow the 'americanize' stuff...we could say that
shocking and suspense moments...which is boooriiing...
so, to the three
please...please...i beg you guys...
please keep on your scary movies as it usually are...
i need it
thank you!!!




sincerely,
me
hardcore horror movies geek
X)

register

just registered for a driver's licence
and im still skeptical about it
i prefer to take public transportation
waaay easier
but my parents wanted me to
so, i'll pass this thing
even though i might not even use it
hahaha
besides, its better to have it in handy
~wink~

just something i found

this is just something i found in tumblr

and i post it because i havent had the time to sort through my photos yet

hohoho

~Cross what you have~




I have/had piercings besides the ears.
I want piercings besides the ears.
I have many scars.
I tan easily.
I wish my hair was a different color.
I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
I have/want a tattoo.
I can be self-conscious about my appearance.
I have/had braces. 
I have more than two piercings.


Embarrassment
Disney movies still make me cry.
I’ve laughed so hard I’ve cried.
I’ve glued my hand to something.
I’ve laughed until some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
I’ve had my pants rip in public.
I’ve touched something sharp/hot/etc to see if it would hurt.


Health
I’ve gotten stitches.
I’ve broken or dislocated a bone.
I’ve had my tonsils removed.
I’ve had my wisdom teeth removed.
I’ve had chicken pox.


Travel
I’ve been to Florida.
I’ve driven/ridden over 200 kilometres in one day.
I’ve been on a plane.
I’ve been to Colombia.
I’ve been to Cuba.
I’ve been to Niagara Falls.
I’ve been to Ottawa
I’ve been to the Caribbean.
I’ve been to Europe.


Experiences
I’ve gotten lost in my city.
I’ve seen a shooting star.
I’ve wished on a shooting star.
I’ve seen a meteor shower.
I’ve gone out in public in my pajamas. 
I’ve pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
I’ve slapped someone.
I’ve kissed someone underwater.
I’ve chugged something.
I’ve crashed a car.
I’ve been skiing.
I’ve been in a musical.
I’ve auditioned for something.
I’ve been on stage.
I’ve caught a snowflake on my tongue.
I’ve sat on a rooftop at night.
I’ve pranked someone.
I’ve ridden in a taxi.


Honesty / Crime
I’ve been threatened to be arrested.
I’ve broken a law.
I’ve done something I promised someone I wouldn’t.- 
I’ve done something I promised myself I wouldn’t.
I’ve sneaked out.
I’ve lied about my whereabouts.
I’ve cheated while playing a game.
I’ve been in a fist fight.


Death
I’m afraid of dying.
I hate funerals.
I’ve seen someone/something die.
Someone close to me has attempted/committed suicide.
I have attempted suicide
I’ve thought about suicide before.
I’ve written a eulogy for myself.


Materialism
I own over 5 rap CDs.
I’m obsessed with anime/manga.
I collected comic books.
I own a lot of makeup.
I own something from Pac Sun.
I own something from The Gap.
I own something I got on E-Bay.
I own something from Abercrombie.
I thrive on compliments
I thrive on hate.


Random
I can sing well.
I’ve stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
I open up to others easily.
I watch the news occasionally or always.
I don’t like to kill bugs.
I sing in the shower.
I’m a morning person.
I’m a sports fanatic.
I twirl my hair.
I care about grammar.
I love spam.
I’ve copied more than 30 CDs in a day.
I bake well.
My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink ,blue, red, black, purple, or orange.
I would wear pajamas to school.
I like Martha Stewart.
I laugh at my own jokes.
I eat fast food weekly.
I’ve not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
I can’t sleep if there’s a spider in the room.
I’m really ticklish.
I like white chocolate.
I bite my nails.
I’m good at remembering names.
I’m good at remembering dates.
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.


People
..ask if I’m anorexic/bulimic.
..call me fat.
..say I’m skinny.
..say I’m ugly.
..have said I’m pretty. 
..spread rumors about me.
..force me to eat.
..say I eat too much.
..say I eat too little.


Eating
I’ve lost weight.
I’ve gained weight
I’m at my thinnest.
I’m at my biggest.
I’ve lost weight and kept it off.
I’ve lost weight, but gained it back
My weight affects my mood.
I diet. 
I’m vegan/vegetarian.
I exercise.
I’ve fainted from exhaustion.


Family
I’ve sworn at my parents.
I’ve planned to run away from home before.
I’ve run away from home.
My biological parents are together.
I have a sibling less than one year old.
I want kids.
I’ve had kids.
I’ve lost a child.


Relationships
I’m in a relationship.
I’m single. 
I’m engaged.
I’m married.
I’m a swinger.
I’ve gone on a blind date.
I have/had a friend with benefits.
I miss someone right now.
I have a fear of abandonment. 
I’ve gotten divorced.
I’ve had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back.
Someone has had feelings for me when I didn’t have them back.
I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.
I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.
I’ve kept something from a past relationship.


Sexuality
I’m a cuddler.
I’ve been kissed in the rain.
I’ve hugged a stranger.
I’ve kissed a stranger.


Bad times
I regularly drink.
I can’t swallow pills
I can swallow numerous pills at a time without difficulty.
I’ve been diagnosed with depression at some point.
I have/had anxiety problems.
I shut others out when I’m upset.
I don’t have anyone to talk to when I’m upset.
I have taken/take anti-depressants.
I’ve slept an entire day before.
I’ve plotted revenge.