Hye! It has been awhile, huh...

Hello, Blogger world. I think it has been more than two years since I updated you? Damn, that is long, huh. But don't worry. I am still documenting the things I have been up to. But right now, I use more Instagram though. Photos and captions. Not even a lot on FB or Twitter. Maybe to reiterate what I have already posted on Insta. But I do think I should be active again in you. Maybe once a week would be enough. Writing things down helps me a lot in letting the creative juice falling. Sometimes it's good to write down nonsensical things, huh. On another note, I'm thinking of creating YouTube videos on things I'm doing, going through or just random thoughts. Maybe it will be once or twice a month thing. What do you think?

By the way, I am currently in Fukuoka, Japan. Where my boyfriend is from. Staying at his sister's apartment. It's such a neat place. Exactly like how I imagined it would be. I'll post more soon with selected photos from my trip in Japan. Of course, I'm gonna post on Insta, but you can write a whole lot more here. A whole freaking essay. Hahaha.

Jaa-ne. (^_^)/

pathetic

pathetic
just fucking pathetic
~sigh~
it's only been barely a week, self
and you got a week more of the quarter to go
lets get this over with and you can dwell on it in a week, yeah
there, there self
ho-hum.....

keeping busy

sooo...I'm working now...just part time...as an admin + tutor at a tuition centre...nothing big...but at least I'm doing something productive instead of "slaving" in front of the PC the whole day...hahaha... />.< ...with the works, applications and my other obligations such as updating my many blogs ( ;p ), I'm pretty much keeping busy...and I like it...dumdidumdidum...

well, this is a Draculaura doll...just got it yesterday

a character in Monster High...one of the mains

I've always wanted dolls like this...but they are not that cheap... :I

well, they still scare me coz I'll always thought they'll come alive

but that's what fascinates me

tihihi

:3

so, till next time, bloggy

sorry I rarely update you

Tumblr is a lot easier

haha

( ,^^)/

not working

~sigh~
all this distracting
they are not working
did they ever was.?. 0_o
ha...ha...
to you, please don't give up
there are people who care about you
-tight hugs-
I know this isn't much
but believe me
good things will happened
and I'm sorry
I'm so so sorry
I can't be there
you'll always be in my prayers
-hugging you tighter-

0_o

dude
I'm really confused now
~sigh~
well, whatever
wishing you all the happiness
-hug-

working with aunty

well, as of today, it has been a month since I worked with my aunty...I started on the 1st of July...so, yeah...it was fun...though I am not sad that it'll end in a week's time...the last day of Ramadhan will be the last day of work...wootwoot...gonna find other works to let me pass the time after this...dumdidumdidum~~~

fresh start.!.wubwub~~~

for years, I've somewhat been keeping several diaries
yeah, I know...I don't really seem 'that' type...harhar...
anyway, I think it's time I burn them all and just keep simple journals
journals where I jotted down random thoughts and feelings in simple sentences
journals where I sketch or doodle anything that comes to mind
yeah, I think that would be better than writing in handwritings that even I sometimes don't understand myself
/>.<
if I wanna write anything long, I'll just 'write' it here, in this blog
gotta be more 'focus'...and fresher...
yosh.!.
~(*w*)~

just got in

just had the time to log in into my numerous e-mails

and other stuff

and damn, there sure are a lot of stuff I gotta handle

at least before 15082013

wootwoot

~(*w*)~

after such a long time

hye.!.
we meet again...after such a freaking long time
it was like 6-7 months...
phew
so many things happened
I'll tell them bit by bit
currently, I'm working part time for my aunt with my lil sis
we just sell some stuff like brooches, head scarves, necklaces, rings.....
the job is from 10am to 10pm...yup, 12 hours
but no worries...it isn't tiring at all
just pretty bored sometimes
good thing I have my books and lappy
/>.<
well, I'm working basically coz I don't wanna be bored at home
heee
so, this is it for now
I promise I'll update 6-7 months worth of events soon
later alligator
( ,^^)/

driving

driving, for me, is somewhat a scary thing

though it is not on the same level as dolls and plushies... >.<

besides, I'm getting more apprehensive of it coz of accidents that I, myself, involved in and also other people's

but whatever it is, I need to know how to drive...so, I just recently continue with my driving lessons

already have the L licence, so, just need to renew it, and off I go behind the wheels

so, today was the 3rd day of my class and I also had a pre-test

alhamdulillah, I manage to pass that...though barely...

so, I can take the 'real' test later

I already aimed to take it on the 19th...so, not gonna go to class on that day...

I realized, driving isn't so hard...it just seems to be a bit harder coz I have to use manual cars during the lessons and tests

oh, well...good thing there are only autos at my house

all in all, I really hope I could got my P on the first go...if not...oh, well...what else to do except to take the test back...heee...

( ,--)\

again and again and again

I keep seeing those words
again and again and again
I know it's never gonna happen
but why do I still feel like this
self, I thought you are better now
you are not at all, huh self
you still couldn't get out of that, huh
~sigh~
self, just let it be
just stop hoping for things
just coz that thing with Twitter,
you are happy all over again
urghhh...grow up...
it's just a short thing
and you know it...you know it all along
and yet, you still feel like this
again and again and again
sucks to be you...

need to be check in the head

~sigh~...I don't know...these past few days, I've become damn confuse of what's happening and what happened...I'm confuse about reality, dreams, fantasies...maybe I fantasise too much...or maybe my dreams were a bit too realistic...but seriously, though...I would wake up from a sleep, whether in the morning or afternoon or evening, and I would think to myself "wow, what a good day" and then I realized I was just dreaming...damn it...and sometimes, when I'm reminiscing about a memory, it took me a while to realise, it's not even a real memory...it was just one of my damn fantasies...I hope this doesn't go on...coz there might be something wrong with my head...really need to check it...or maybe, I should just stop making up scenarios in my head and watching or reading real messed up stories or movies or series...should get a reality check and keep track on what's real, what's not...come on...it isn't that hard, right...I can effing do it.!. \(~_~)/

MISS YOU

fuck

I miss you,

damn it

.!.

ho-hum

~(*o*)~

p/s:...gonna stop being pathetic when I've calmed down or healed enough... /(>.<) ...being stupid an all...

next week

yeah
can't update you properly this week
I'll do it next week
coz I have exam till the 8th
gonna be back home on that day
and with great internet connection,
I'm all yours
this also applies to my other blogs
>.<

back home

hello, civilization
by this, I mean superb internet connection
heee
well, just got back from another awesome Family Day
gonna update you when I got the time
right now, I got things to download and watch
(^.-)

water shortage

right now, my college is having some water shortage

urghhh...

it pissed me off coz when I was fully prepared before, as they say it might happened, it didn't

but now, I didn't hear any warning, but it happened

damn it...

X(

well, good thing I've managed to save some water

enough to shower and what not for today

~sigh~

can't register

well, the main reason that I can't register is coz of the fees that I haven't paid yet...heee...totally forgot about it...but then again, even if I did I still can't register...well, I don't think if it's my fault or not...but the story goes like this...to register, we have to have at least 12 credit hours...as for me, I only have 11...and some of the courses, I have to pass this sem's first before I'm able to register...~sigh~...so, that would make it less than 11...ho-hum...whatever it is...I have to wait till the results come out to be able to register the courses...~big sigh~

just some more

phew
finally manage to update my photo blog;
here
up next, my Tumblr need to update some more
and I'm also thinking of doing another blog
for the stories that had been held up in my head for quite a while
ho-hum...
-thinking and thinking-

so many things to say

yeah, I do have lots of things to post about
but for now, I don't really have time to really talk about them
so, I'm just gonna talk about the little trivial things that had been happening
well, for one, though I've finished lots of my work
there are still enough to swamp me
and, there are some things that I need money for...
well, I'm not really having money problem
just thinking of the things I'm about to spend them on
is justified or not...like do I really 'need' to...or do I just 'want' to...
hurmmm
then, there are these social obligations
enough said...-wink-
ho-hum
aaand...sometimes I think I fantasize too much
I should just put up another blog
to fill in with all the stories my mind came up with
the mysteries, the crimes, the sex, the murders, the ghosts
gathered from the numerous things I watch and read
last but not least, my sports time
I don't really get to do much nowadays
especially since the rain keeps appearing in the evening
and I have early morning class
weekends are good as I sometimes go back and get to swim
but all in all,
my life is pretty good and I'm thankful for it
as in comparison to the population of some part of the world,
I am, living a good life
: ) 

paint it some more

just finished painting my room some more

I add some black to the white and lilac

and put some 'cute' shapes this time...-wink-

I paint the black using spray paint and I was really bad at it

>.<

good thing I had the sense to cover some part of the wall while spraying

but some black still got onto the lilac area

ho-hum.....

and what's more,

my hands, especially nails, got all this black on them

(the pic in my other blog)

and I didn't have this 'thinner' thingy to get rid of them

but, it did come out a bit when I used my nail polish remover

hohoho... ;p

the painting took longer than it should be

coz I was busy finding the shapes and all

and then having to try them out to familiarize myself with spray paint

and now, I'm sore all over and just wanna lay down for 2 days

~(*.*)~

but I can't...coz have just a little bit of something more to do

have to drill in those shelves

but gotta wait for dad and morning

don't think my neighbours are gonna like it if I do it now

heee.....