pathetic

pathetic
just fucking pathetic
~sigh~
it's only been barely a week, self
and you got a week more of the quarter to go
lets get this over with and you can dwell on it in a week, yeah
there, there self
ho-hum.....

So many things

yeah...sooo many things had happened lately...been to a few events, trips...and also got a new phone, thanks, Mommy.!.now, my days are all pretty pack up...being a busy bee on weekdays, with work, and a social butterfly during weekends...wootwoot...

Lunch with Yummy at Secret Recipe

Escape events with beach themed 'photoshoot'...-giggle-

Fun time at the beach.!.and taking a dip in a hot spring...weee...

Animax Carnival

~(^_^)~

First photo I posted with the new phone...

well, these are some of the things that I did and went

there are a few others like Doraemon Expo, Bunkasai, Petroscience and some more

just don't have the photos in this phone I'm using right now to update...and I'm too lazy to transfer

tihihi

/>.<

(^.^)v

Buzzz...buzzz...

Flutter...flutter...

oahayou.!. (^_^)/

hullo...so, anyway, yeah...been about 2 months since my last update ya...was at places where internet connections were hard to come by...so, anyway...now I'm helping out at UPM for the convocation which will start this Saturday or sometime this week...and had been to several events and did several things since my last post...but with the bloody slow internet connections, not gonna update on them for now coz can't upload the photos...anyway...that "thing" happened again...~sigh~...well, maybe it's for the best...hope you'll be happy...forever and always...and well, this job ends on Thursday...got things to do this weekend and hey, nearing Halloween again...hope everything goes on smoothly...dumdidumdidum~~~

events.!.

August is gonna be a month full of awesome events!;

Raya celebration

going to friends' houses

celebrating birthdays

annual R&R Family Day

Animangaki

cosplay activities

hanging out with love ones

~(^o^)~

again and again and again

I keep seeing those words
again and again and again
I know it's never gonna happen
but why do I still feel like this
self, I thought you are better now
you are not at all, huh self
you still couldn't get out of that, huh
~sigh~
self, just let it be
just stop hoping for things
just coz that thing with Twitter,
you are happy all over again
urghhh...grow up...
it's just a short thing
and you know it...you know it all along
and yet, you still feel like this
again and again and again
sucks to be you...

MISS YOU

fuck

I miss you,

damn it

.!.

ho-hum

~(*o*)~

p/s:...gonna stop being pathetic when I've calmed down or healed enough... /(>.<) ...being stupid an all...

it's great until...haish...

been having not-so-good dreams since a few nights ago...
which rarely happens since I'm a good 'dreamer' usually
so last night, I slept with Momo, a stuff monkey I got as a gift
yeah, I don't generally do that
coz in my opinion,
stuff animal could wake up and kill you in your sleeep...heee... /(#>.<#)
so, anyway, yeah...
it kinda work
I woke up around 0630 with good dreams in my mind
about sweet real memories blending in with cool stories I watched
feeling good and all.....
but then, I log into FB and poof.!.good feelings gone
bye bye...see you never...
haish...
X(
why can't some people just let me be when I'm trying to heal at my pace
we've never really talked before, so don't start now
I don't wanna
damn it.!.

p/s:...good luck to you who are having your final paper today...

procrastination despite tomorrow's exam

yup
got exam tomorrow
Friday, 10082012
will be in the usual class
and will start around 1000
but here I am
in front of the lappy
typing this entry
because I'm too full to move
'-_-
and because my heart hasn't settle down yet
haha
O_O
well,
ganbatte-ne, Sayid-chan!!!
\(*o*)/

crash & burn (Savage Garden)

p/s:...regardless of the title and the name of the 'band', it's quite a sweet song... (^^,)

When you feel all alone

And the world has turned its back on you

Give me a moment please to tame your wild wild heart

I know you feel like the walls are closing in on you

It's hard to find relief and people can be so cold

When darkness is upon your door and you feel like you can't take anymore

Let me be the one you call

If you jump I'll break your fall

Lift you up and fly away with you into the night

If you need to fall apart

I can mend a broken heart

If you need to crash then crash and burn

You're not alone

When you feel all alone

And a loyal friend is hard to find

You're caught in a one way street

With the monsters in your head

When hopes and dreams are far away and

You feel like you can't face the day

Let me be the one you call

If you jump I'll break your fall

Lift you up and fly away with you into the night

If you need to fall apart

I can mend a broken heart

If you need to crash then crash and burn

You're not alone

'Cause there has always been heartache and pain

And when it's over you'll breathe again

You'll breath again

When you feel all alone

And the world has turned its back on you

Give me a moment please

To tame your wild wild heart

Let me be the one you call

If you jump I'll break your fall

Lift you up and fly away with you into the night

If you need to fall apart

I can mend a broken heart

If you need to crash then crash and burn

You're not alone

turn back time

just read a person's post about how
if turning back the time is possible
don't wanna be in particular places, at particular times
saying particular words.....

it made me think

what if I can turn back time

...

what would I do

...

where do I wanna be

...

how would I change my past

...

~sigh~

I just hope I could make everything better

not saying I won't make mistakes

coz some mistakes are important as we learn from them

I'm just saying how I should do certain things

and how I should not do certain things

make everything as perfect as can be

ho-hum

angst

hurmmm...
it was a very 'interesting' night
so many calling and texting
and crying (-eyes rolling-)
with so many emotions
first I was happy
then sad
and then happy again
and then annoyed
and then pissed off
and then 'in-the-zone'
and then happy again
and a lil bit irritated
and back to sad
and now, I'm just trying to be calm
~sigh~

p/s:...good luck and congrats...

shop till you drop, with friends

these past few days, I've been shopping quite a lot

more than I normally did

but most of them were stuff that I really need

and only a few were stuff that I want

things that I need were like

facial wash, foundation, compact powder, hair clip...

and things that I want were like

dress, bracelet...

well, the best thing was that I managed to buy a dress

after quite a long time

and I'm gonna try to find another and another and another

hehehe...

and this was the week where I'm out with lots of my friends

the most stand out was my outing with SHASHA

she's one of my besties and it has been more than

a year and a half since I last saw her

she's 4 months pregnant now

can't wait to see her cute baby.!.

>_<

her husband, Witri, and her said they think its a boy

but I secretly hope for a girl

hehehe

well, we'll just see, k

hope you have a very smooth pregnancy, Shansha!!!

-hugs and kisses-

singing

yesterday was a day full of singing

;p

i went to Alamandar with my besties

and we were karaoke-ing for 2 hours

damn, that was tiring for my throat...

hoho...

and then, at night...

I had another 1-2 hours of singing for the theater

it was fun as the song is silly and we did some silly dances

tihihi

p/s:...shouldn't have opened what I did... (~_~)

funeral

just got home

from my grandma funeral

may her soul

be with among those who are blessed

X)

share

i wanna share.....

dats why i.....

but.....

i guess.....

maybe next.....

ho-hum.....

:(

~(^.^)~

im so excited!!!

cant wait to meet my lovely cuzs

wooohooo!!!

with toheng, awih, yummy and enab
mmmuahhh!!!

tonight is the night

yeah, baby!!!

bye selangor

and hello kelantan

(^o^)v

not long

despite what u say

u
do
care

p/s:...t-x 2 u... -wink-

tihihi

WANT U

NEED U

MISS U

LOVE U

:I

I MISS U SO FREAKING MUCH!!!

sweet cuzsss (20/12-22/12)

well, after da fam day sm of my beloved cuzs cm 2 my home 4 3 days

they were; yummy, enab, yah, aweh, aiman n daniel (though aiman practically lives here...lolz)

arrived from da resort on da 19th, we choose 2 rest since our fun-n-hectic wud start da next day

so, early morning on da 20th, we galz went 2 times square since yah avnt been there b4

we played in cosmo world 4 like 5 hours...from 1100 till 1600...haha

enab ave da best day dat day with playing all da rides almost all thrice...

n horror...i puke!!!...on da ride called dizzy izzy...damn...hahaha...thank goodness i made it 2 da toilet...-phewww-...

but at least i gotta ride at da front of my fav ride...da roller coaster...

damn...i luv those kind of rides...unless it involves 2 much tight spinning...

after dat, we went 2 eat at sushi king...though im not a sushi eater myself...but i like da noodles n ramen n stuff...yummy was da sushi lover here...

anyway, enab regret it coz she said it was 2 expensive n she wasnt full...but i think da price was standard prize...well, dats just me...

n then we ave 2 wait 4 more than 30 mins waiting 4 da monorail coz da station was jam pack wit people...-sigh-

on da 21st, we went 2 x-treme park...which was very near 2 my house...just 25 mins of walking or 3 mins of driving...tihihi...(aweh didnt cm...he just slept all day...-eyes rolling-)

we went wall climbing...but i only acted as da photographer...since i'd already done it

aiman was da fastest...about 3 mins... 0.0 ...adam got sm probs at 1st but he pulled through...meanwhile, daniel didnt even get 2 da middle part just a few feet above da ground

oh well, he was only 8...there will b time 2 build da confidence...hehe

after dat, we went 2 eat yummylicious ice-creams at burger king...

on da 3rd day, we just lazzying around da house n my cuzs were packing coz they'll

went back 2 kelantan

LOVE them n MISS them so much

/(^.^)/

wishing it was him...-heart-

cute christmas decor

da thing dat'll never ever b on my bed....-scared-

enab da driver...vrooommm!!!

yah...da gal dat like 2 do da 'peace' sign... (^.^)v

ooohhh...a t-rex approaching...

GO POWER!!!

mmm...healthylicious meal...-wink-

yummy n me already decided 2 share

wit da egg pudding dat we only rmmbred at de end.. 0.o

just posing wit da chopsticks...tihihi...

ready 2 serve...lolz...

nice girls...nice view...nice rock...hehe

yiiiehaaa!!!

mine was da strawberry...-slurrrppp-...