again and again and again

I keep seeing those words
again and again and again
I know it's never gonna happen
but why do I still feel like this
self, I thought you are better now
you are not at all, huh self
you still couldn't get out of that, huh
~sigh~
self, just let it be
just stop hoping for things
just coz that thing with Twitter,
you are happy all over again
urghhh...grow up...
it's just a short thing
and you know it...you know it all along
and yet, you still feel like this
again and again and again
sucks to be you...

the devil inside

some people are just too effing cruel
that they should be burned at the stake
and have the corpse drowned
to make sure they really are dead

angst

hurmmm...
it was a very 'interesting' night
so many calling and texting
and crying (-eyes rolling-)
with so many emotions
first I was happy
then sad
and then happy again
and then annoyed
and then pissed off
and then 'in-the-zone'
and then happy again
and a lil bit irritated
and back to sad
and now, I'm just trying to be calm
~sigh~

p/s:...good luck and congrats...

fucking serve me right

"What you don't know won't hurt you"

how right that was

and now, here I am

in my room

fucking crying

damn that time of the month (nah, not really...)

making me fucking emotional and stuff

oh, well...

guess another saying is right

"You'll never really know a person"

well, fuck me

X(

remember and forget

it's hard to decide what to remember and what to forget

sometimes, we just can't have one without the other

if we want to remember the sweet times,

we can't do it without remembering the depression we want to forget

if we want to forget the feelings,

we can't do it without forgetting the connections we want to remember

oh my, oh my...

sometimes, the best choice is to just suppressed them

you are not forgetting, but you are not remembering either

but too much can be poisons to your mind

gonna spin out of control sooner or later

it's good if you've practiced it since you were little

oh, well...

things happen for some reasons

we just gotta accept it all

the good, the bad, the beautiful and the ugly

singing

yesterday was a day full of singing

;p

i went to Alamandar with my besties

and we were karaoke-ing for 2 hours

damn, that was tiring for my throat...

hoho...

and then, at night...

I had another 1-2 hours of singing for the theater

it was fun as the song is silly and we did some silly dances

tihihi

p/s:...shouldn't have opened what I did... (~_~)

lol

karma's a bitch

well,

that's only because

you are one

-sweet smile-

urge

getting stronger everyday

~sigh~

<('~')>

busy body bastards

i don't really mind if you guys talk to me directly
but you pissed me off
when you messed with the head of whom i hold dear
are you guys like afraid of me or something.....
with just 2 weeks left, and this thing cropped out
niiice...reeealy niiice...
'-_-
have some balls you 3Bs
-sweet smile-

oh, damn... '-_-

just when i'm about to try so hard

you pop up in every way possible

~sigh~

over

4 years

3 months

1 week

3 days

it was wonderful

.....

hmmm

I'M SORRY

share

i wanna share.....

dats why i.....

but.....

i guess.....

maybe next.....

ho-hum.....

:(

X(

there's no effing need for that
and
if you want it to be done, fast
do it yourself
~sigh~

words

always say i have to mind my words
but do you
...?...
-.-

~sigh~

do you even care
...?...
nevermind
...

torn to pieces

X(

being consumed

telling myself

not to let it consume me

wtf
none of my business

anyway
...

X(

dont

dont tell
dont care
dont give a damn

dats wut u said
oh, well...
u'll noe
when
the vultures are scavenging
the corpses

mess

IM A FUCKING  MESS