weird...

i woke up at 0530 and i just have that weird feeling
and i kept asking myself
"what the hell is it?"
just as i got back from the bathroom, i remembered
it was because of the dream i had before i woke up
a very weird dream that made me think
"why the hell did i dream those?" ... '''-___-
well, i'll probably forget it in the next hour and lets just hope it'll never occur again
hohoho

maybe im too old...or too cynical...

since the past 5-6 years (im 22 now...lolz), a lot of things doesnt seem that exciting anymore to me...

especially celebrations;.....

birthdays

independence day (well, im never really excited about this anyway)

aidilfitri

aidiladha

and all those holidays in between

i only look forward to those because they are holidays and i got to hang out and go play with my friends and cousins

the day itself, im not really feeling it...

speaking of which, aidilfitri is maybe tomorrow or the next day (i just know cause a friend told me...not paying attention to dates) and to me, its just another supposedly

hype-up-blown-out-of-proportion celebration that is done by the capitalist world of malaysia (admit it, money rule us over)

i just like it by the fact that im gonna meet my cousins and play with them

saying 'sorry' to parents and elders on that day is kinda like saying you wait for 1 whole year to say you are 'truly sorry'

just say you are sorry whenever you did something wrong...it isnt that hard, really...

and all those phony friends and families that say that to you on that day and started bitching about you again after a few days

it made you think that, 'do they really mean it?'...hurmmm...i dont think so...

well, in any way...

we should just celebrate these things moderately no matter how able we are

unless, we feed and help the poor and unfortunate on that day...then, go as crazy as you want

peace out, people

and enjoy the remaining holiday

\(^o^)v

oh, really.....

left right

up down

right wrong

moment infinity

superior inferior

woman man

saint sinner

win lose

girl boy

...perspectives...

just something i found

this is just something i found in tumblr

and i post it because i havent had the time to sort through my photos yet

hohoho

~Cross what you have~




I have/had piercings besides the ears.
I want piercings besides the ears.
I have many scars.
I tan easily.
I wish my hair was a different color.
I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
I have/want a tattoo.
I can be self-conscious about my appearance.
I have/had braces. 
I have more than two piercings.


Embarrassment
Disney movies still make me cry.
I’ve laughed so hard I’ve cried.
I’ve glued my hand to something.
I’ve laughed until some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
I’ve had my pants rip in public.
I’ve touched something sharp/hot/etc to see if it would hurt.


Health
I’ve gotten stitches.
I’ve broken or dislocated a bone.
I’ve had my tonsils removed.
I’ve had my wisdom teeth removed.
I’ve had chicken pox.


Travel
I’ve been to Florida.
I’ve driven/ridden over 200 kilometres in one day.
I’ve been on a plane.
I’ve been to Colombia.
I’ve been to Cuba.
I’ve been to Niagara Falls.
I’ve been to Ottawa
I’ve been to the Caribbean.
I’ve been to Europe.


Experiences
I’ve gotten lost in my city.
I’ve seen a shooting star.
I’ve wished on a shooting star.
I’ve seen a meteor shower.
I’ve gone out in public in my pajamas. 
I’ve pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
I’ve slapped someone.
I’ve kissed someone underwater.
I’ve chugged something.
I’ve crashed a car.
I’ve been skiing.
I’ve been in a musical.
I’ve auditioned for something.
I’ve been on stage.
I’ve caught a snowflake on my tongue.
I’ve sat on a rooftop at night.
I’ve pranked someone.
I’ve ridden in a taxi.


Honesty / Crime
I’ve been threatened to be arrested.
I’ve broken a law.
I’ve done something I promised someone I wouldn’t.- 
I’ve done something I promised myself I wouldn’t.
I’ve sneaked out.
I’ve lied about my whereabouts.
I’ve cheated while playing a game.
I’ve been in a fist fight.


Death
I’m afraid of dying.
I hate funerals.
I’ve seen someone/something die.
Someone close to me has attempted/committed suicide.
I have attempted suicide
I’ve thought about suicide before.
I’ve written a eulogy for myself.


Materialism
I own over 5 rap CDs.
I’m obsessed with anime/manga.
I collected comic books.
I own a lot of makeup.
I own something from Pac Sun.
I own something from The Gap.
I own something I got on E-Bay.
I own something from Abercrombie.
I thrive on compliments
I thrive on hate.


Random
I can sing well.
I’ve stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
I open up to others easily.
I watch the news occasionally or always.
I don’t like to kill bugs.
I sing in the shower.
I’m a morning person.
I’m a sports fanatic.
I twirl my hair.
I care about grammar.
I love spam.
I’ve copied more than 30 CDs in a day.
I bake well.
My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink ,blue, red, black, purple, or orange.
I would wear pajamas to school.
I like Martha Stewart.
I laugh at my own jokes.
I eat fast food weekly.
I’ve not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
I can’t sleep if there’s a spider in the room.
I’m really ticklish.
I like white chocolate.
I bite my nails.
I’m good at remembering names.
I’m good at remembering dates.
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.


People
..ask if I’m anorexic/bulimic.
..call me fat.
..say I’m skinny.
..say I’m ugly.
..have said I’m pretty. 
..spread rumors about me.
..force me to eat.
..say I eat too much.
..say I eat too little.


Eating
I’ve lost weight.
I’ve gained weight
I’m at my thinnest.
I’m at my biggest.
I’ve lost weight and kept it off.
I’ve lost weight, but gained it back
My weight affects my mood.
I diet. 
I’m vegan/vegetarian.
I exercise.
I’ve fainted from exhaustion.


Family
I’ve sworn at my parents.
I’ve planned to run away from home before.
I’ve run away from home.
My biological parents are together.
I have a sibling less than one year old.
I want kids.
I’ve had kids.
I’ve lost a child.


Relationships
I’m in a relationship.
I’m single. 
I’m engaged.
I’m married.
I’m a swinger.
I’ve gone on a blind date.
I have/had a friend with benefits.
I miss someone right now.
I have a fear of abandonment. 
I’ve gotten divorced.
I’ve had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back.
Someone has had feelings for me when I didn’t have them back.
I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.
I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.
I’ve kept something from a past relationship.


Sexuality
I’m a cuddler.
I’ve been kissed in the rain.
I’ve hugged a stranger.
I’ve kissed a stranger.


Bad times
I regularly drink.
I can’t swallow pills
I can swallow numerous pills at a time without difficulty.
I’ve been diagnosed with depression at some point.
I have/had anxiety problems.
I shut others out when I’m upset.
I don’t have anyone to talk to when I’m upset.
I have taken/take anti-depressants.
I’ve slept an entire day before.
I’ve plotted revenge.

experiment

ok

this is me

experimenting

on the new (recommended) settings

-_-

p/s:...and looks like it works... (^.^)v

what the...

so,
as i was browsing through fb and some blogs
they made me think
"what the hell is wrong with kids, nowadays"
they posted about things that they shouldnt
i mean,
i know its your blog, freedom of speech (...wait, what?...), and whatever
but think about what will happen in 5-10 years time
you dont want the damn thing to keep hanging over your head, do you...?...
just waiting to come down and slice your head off
which is a very cool image, by the way
hahaha
im no saint...
but please keep your sins to yourself
X)

blood experiment

im bored

so
i did my nails
but
i have a lot to refined
ho-hum


like this 1st look...before i cleaned up the sides...

lined with black

my thumb...hoho...

couldnt live this alone...pink made my fingers look shorter...lolz...

cranky

im feeling cranky
so
stay away
or
you are gonna be
collateral damage
.....

alone vs lonely

when we are alone
it doesnt mean we are lonely
we could be in a sea of people
yet feel lonely
and we could be alone in our room
yet loneliness doesnt come

theories

so much conspiracy theories
in this small world
we are living in
but as the saying goes
"we see what we want to see"
so, think about it, people...
~(*o*)~

dead

im dead

hack into pieces

thrown into da desert

so the vultures can feed off

my molting carcass

sorry

sorry dat i look at them, bro

even if it was just 4 a mo'

really wasnt my intention

u shud warn me

-.-

fun

PLAY SAFE
-wink-

dreams

i think, if im not mistaken
2day was da 3rd time
i dreamt
about people dat i ave not met 4 a long time
n also
about people dat r really close 2 me
hmmm
...

wut do i do

wut do i do when i get bored

...?...

hmmm

i'll go 2 anot-chan's room

n ask her 2 paint my nails

she's really good at it, u noe

as long as u got da outline of wut u wanna do 2 ur nails, she cud do it

smtms, she creates them herself...smtms she use da internet (lolz)

my nail art sifu

hehe

but if she's not around, i juz make up wutever i want 4 my nails

n did them myselves

X)

pink-red-eyed mummy...tihihi

take a closer look...hehehe...

sha2 (polka dot), anot (cookie monster) n me (corset n blob)

but all by anot...tihihi

her nail polishes collection...only 3 of those r mine

vote

we r living in a democratic country

where voting makes everything...well, almost...hehe

those who do not vote r deemd as 'not contributing 2 da country'

so, i vote 4 UPM's MPP

not coz i want 2...its coz i ave 2

n y do i ave 2...?...

coz if things dont go da way i want it 2 b or smthg about da system displease me

i can complaint...a lot...

coz i ave da right

so, vote 4 da 'sake' of ur 'beloved' country

so u ave da right 2 complain n bitchd about it l8er

about how corrupted da world we r living in

hahaha

X)

(-_-)

nag

nag

nag

nag

'-_-